first day of school, last year of school

today i started my new internship. i'm exhausted. it's only been about three weeks since my last internship, but i forgot how tiring it is to start somewhere new. my face hurts. you have to smile a lot and be interested and listen. you are not sure if people will think you are funny or just trying too hard. and then there is the sweating. i have been hot all day and i keep looking around, like- hey is anyone else melting or am i freakishly hormonal?
oh...that probably is the issue.

i want...

elegy written in a country churchyard

O Rose, thou art sick
The invisible work
That flies in the night
In the howling storm

Has found out thy bed
of crimson joy,
And his dark secret love
Does thy life destroy

The dark unfathomed caves of ocean bear:
Fully many a flower is born to blush unseen,
And waste its sweetness on the desert air

Thomas Gray

bat or pig?

on thursday night E and i went to see Dark Knight. i found it a bit disturbing and not as sexy as the first one. i even found myself missing katie holmes, which is super weird. maggie g is way above that role, besides it just didn't suit her. then the joker is so scary and it's just creepy anyway since the actor has since died. i had to come home and watch something lighthearted so that i could sleep. Penelope stars Christina Ricci who is a girl born with a pig's snout. 1 word: fabulous.

chanar

aka: best roomate ever

i came home from work today and she had opened up all my windows- to let some air in, lit a candle and made my bed. then she took me to lunch. we came home and i was still sad so i fell asleep for a couple of hours. when i got up she made me dinner.

loves her! and then she gave me these yummy japanese candies

these saved my life today

but for reals.
it's the small things in life

i want...a garden

i love gardens. BUT i would rather have someone who knows what they are doing take care of it. i would like to attempt an herb garden, however the real English garden i have in mind would

require more work then i think i might be able to give it, unless, that is i marry really well and sit at home to garden and read all day, ah...to read all day. i'll add that to my wants later.

things i want: a series

i will be continually adding to this series. i've decided to do a virtual vision blog of sorts. some of these things might be material, some not, some outlandish some more meager, but they are a few of the things to which i aspire.

5 reasons why i love phoenix. the end.

is it a full moon?

a consistent theme out there is that people are depressed. this is not just because i am a social worker and see sad stuff all the time. a lot of my friends and family are feeling a bit hollow and admittedly i am one of them. there is some research out there that suggests more and more children are being diagnosed as depressed, anxious and even bipolar because of environmental issues: meaning constant exposure to stress, depravity, sadness and apprehension. children may possibly be just reacting to the pulse of this planet.

i like the idea of prozac being a simple detergent that cleans anything up. a harsh, bleach like substance that wipes away the good and bad.

do you know what always makes me feel better?

curious george, the movie with will farrell. love that guy.