sick

yeah i'm sick. i thought it was just climate change, or altitude change, or cramps or something, but no- i am definitely sick. it's 84 degrees right now and it would be sort of nice to leave the house, but every time i think about putting flip flops on or taking the curlers out of my hair i simply change my mind. being sick has enabled me to download all of my photos from my i-phone though. allow me to share a few:
the quilt i started making in utah:


pictures i finally put up in my room after living here for 6 months


cute niece and nephew! little aidan likes to dance and watch his favorite movie, cloudy with a chance of meatballs (which is really quite hilarious and i appreciate his taste in movies) sophie just likes to hang with socks.

sad, soggy saturday

it is killing me to leave. i actually started crying today. i know, i know i cry all the time, but seriously. i have had such a great time here. i really feel like i'm leaving my home. i really wish i could stay another week, but no. i have to head back to stupid, sunny, southern california. where i have a job and a life, but for some reason just doesn't feel as comforting. i wish i had run into a few more people while i was here, but all in all i kept quite busy, felt real loved and enjoyed myself immensely.

and now a word about best friend. i haven't stayed with sher the entire time i've been here, but i've been able to spend a lot of time with her. it is possible that both of our lives are changing a lot this year and i think it has made me appreciate her even more. i have really relished the time i've had with sher bear. we are very different. for example, her neurotic ability to get up at 5:30 am and work out every morning, her commitment to doing her hair everyday (something i cannot muster), and her wherewithal to drink protein shakes (gross!). but in all seriousness, she is a wonderful friend, has stood by my side in all things, is always a fun time and will play cards with me. i love her. and my last night here will be cozy'd up with sherry.

a big part of leaving salt lake is leaving behind friends that i truly adore and miss. thanks for all the good times and perhaps this fall i'll be back on a more permanent basis- unemployed no doubt, but here nevertheless. so thanks for the good times everybody, i've extended my visit as long as i could, but tomorrow i'm getting in the old civic and heading to vegas.

xo

country roads, take me home (or something)

wahoo! road trip is a' comin! let me just tell you how excited i am! best friend is flying in on saturday, getting my car washed (which is highly unusual for me), tasty treats will be bought, playlists are being made- it's all happening. it. is. all. happening.

so, although having a month off from work is slightly financially devastating....it is also awesome. i think i'm going to do a week and a half in utah- which i cannot be more excited about. i have a some truly wonderful friends that i have been missing a lot, so it will be good to see all of them. i have some favorite restaurants that i can't wait for and i have a whole lot of shoes, clothes, etc in storage that i can't wait to get my hands on.

but here's the thing: i've been thinking a lot lately about salt lake. it's hard for me to figure out if i'm romanticizing. cause i sure love to do that. i feel like i am a slightly different version of myself in the different places i have lived and sometimes i really miss the person that i was in salt lake. i think. sometimes i really miss how laid back it is. i miss how friendly it is. i miss how beautiful it is. but really, so much happened to me in the three years i lived there. there was so much discovery, almost like an unveiling and in a lot of ways i'm still learning about myself. a huge, huge part of it is, i left california to go back to school and become a therapist. and i'm not a therapist. and i can't tell if that is okay or not. although this is slightly irrational, i feel like i can only be a therapist in utah. i'm licensed there. i'm not here.

so i'm going to go back to salt lake for a visit. i'm going to red iguana and takashi (a couple times), i'm going to see some friends, i'm going to rediscover my wardrobe and i'm going to think about whether or not i need to live in salt lake again.

hello lover!

i came to work yesterday, was sitting innocently at my desk, quietly pondering where to begin, when in walks my friend (and co-worker) with a present for me. and a note, which said: we could haven't survived the last 4 months without you. I couldn't think of a better person to regift this bag. enjoy it as thanks for a job well done. I'll miss you next month.

i totally got tears in my eyes! she gave me the most beautiful patent leather bag. i could just die. (her sister works for a fashion magazine and often sends her very nice things, some of which she regifts- i happened to a be a very lucky recipient this time).

anyway it was very nice and touched my little heart.

so without further ado here is my darling bag:

hello tassels!!

okay

weird that it's almost thursday. had a rough patch there, which is sort of sad considering what a fantastic weekend i had. but i think tonight's dinner sort of sums up my week thus far: brownies and funyuns. yeah, i know.

blank stare.

so i'm going to reminisce over my tranquil weekend. full of good friends, good food and sailing!

these are the times when i think to myself, it's not so bad living in california. not so bad at all.

it's a seal! he was sunning his fins! (we saw a dolphin too)

sad lighthouse

port of los angeles

our sail

little kid hair:

san pedro

rainy day

i love rainy days so much. when i was a kid if it rained i would try and do anything i could to stay home from school that day. i would heat up mozzarella cheese, so it was kind of melty and dip it in red sauce, turn on re-runs, open the curtains and curl up in a blanket. it very rarely rained in phoenix, so this didn't happen too often, but i relished these days. and because it's very sunny here in l.a. i welcome the rain. i don't get to stay home today, but this is what i wish i was doing: in this order (be at home, eating cake, watching tv)
this is me in my ethereal look- i like to call it brentwood apartment rainy day time:


and this is by far the best cake i've ever had in my life. it was a white cake with coconut frosting. i can't even it explain it, so i won't really try, but just know that it was uhmazing.


and this is the show i've been watching on hulu. i love it and it reminds me of shows from when i was a kid. plus parker posey is in it. (it didn't get picked up)

lalala tralalala

last week a friend and i went to an art show in santa monica and we saw famous people, which was a lot more interesting then the art, because it was lame. now i'm not one of those people who criticizes art just because i don't understand it, but i am one to criticize it if it looks like poopy shit and has no business on any wall, let alone a gallery. needless to say, more people watching was done that night. this town is so weird because even at an event like this (there was a haiti benefit next door as well) people were really just there to be seen. it's unsettling. but this is who came out to be seen that night:
rashida jones:

gerard butler:

billy zane:

weird