doin my best

i'm real sad about japan. i decided to freak out and go off my diet and watch benjamin buttons to make me feel better. but then i forgot how sad benjamin buttons is. i was bawling. like sobbing, convulsing.
please forgive me for posting something with dane cook, but clearly he has his finger on the pulse of uncontrollable weeping.

hello!

got my new glasses! i love them so much. ready to be on call tonight and throw them on so that i look smarter.

not to love, just to dream

i had to bust out bonnie rait this morning.
i have been having crazy vivid dreams lately, which is so nice because it's been such a long time since i've had nice dreams or dreams that aren't full of angst, anxiety and hurt feelings. like i'm having dreams. it's truly a gift to be able to just close your eyes and have random nice things happen: elementary crushes resurfacing, bff time, vacationing in nordic tropical islands, flirting. all good times. and this song, although a bit sad is just dreamy....

okay button

again there is no such thing. but i'm feeling lots better and more in control so i thought i would celebrate with adorable critters.
prepare yourself:

is it a hedgehog? i do not know and i do not care because it is adorable.

and that cat pic is just so stoopid that it's also amazing.
and now for the big guns:

did you die? because i want that doggy so bad. first of all what kind of leetle precious baby dog is it? and then why was someone so clever to give it a mohawk and then dye it red? clearly, because someone is brilliant.
let's go get em last week of february!

reset botton.

do those even exist? where did i get that from? there's no reset button on my computer. reboot.restart. retard. dunno.
anyway this weekend was supposed to be for that, so i can get a handle, cause i certainly felt like i lost it. or am still. dunno again.
so friday was this:

saturday i cleaned and such, which felt really good. went shopping and made myself a lovely salmon dinner. it just felt good to eat a home cooked meal, since it's been like a month (excluding my fabulous dinner at al's superbowl party). but i also went shopping for frames and i found some:

the ones i want are black frame with a square bit of red in the corner. so cute. so pricey. so mine. someday.

today i met up with friends.
took a long walk.
stopped and talked to some guy named noel (pronounced like no-el as in christmas- how charming!) he was playing banjo in his front yard. asked him to play me a song which he obligingly did. which also reminded me that next year for halloween i want to be steve martin


the best part kittens, is this day is not over yet.

someone needs a chill pill

started the new job.

still hate oatmeal even if you try and disguise it in cookies. that's not cool by the way.
also am confused that there are flies in my house. hello? it's freezing and you should be dead and how the hell did you get in here anyway? there are no open windows or doors. kind of creeps me out. a lot.
i'll end on a happy note:

that's my bff gaga, she's coming over in march to hang.

i feel weird

maybe it was the six cups of coffee.
maybe cause it's my last day of work tomorrow.
maybe cause i had a strange date.
maybe cause i forgot to eat lunch.

when i say weird i mean i sort of feel confused and tired also a little buzzy and i think maybe a little anger too?

just weird. perhaps i need to start a garden.