to live until i die

some of you may not be aware of this, but every year at this time i change my blog title and background. because my birthday falls on the first of january, it's always easy for me to reflect and refocus for my next year. these have been my blogs in the past:

29 and living in transition

30 and moving closer to the edge
a new year, another decade in my life and i'm ready to hold on tightly to more love, more peace and more glitter.

31 and from here you can see the sea.
not looking for anything just enjoying the view.

last year i really took a sit back approach. i really just wanted to take some time for myself. figure some things out. or at least let some other things settle. this is not to say i did nothing, because actually i did a lot. but i just wanted to have a year of being okay with all the decisions i made. just being o.k. really o.k. this is so very hard for me. but, all in all i think i did okay. i honestly feel like i know myself better. i feel like i love myself more. i feel like i'm in a direction and i'm committed to that direction. don't care if it's right or wrong, it's just my direction.

so.... that being said, this year, which is in fact a new decade, i have decided to live a lot. instead of sitting back (which had it's benefits) this year i'd like to actively LIVE!

i'm really going to take that trip i always say i'm going to take.
i'm going to go outside more.
i'm going to work more- a lot more, like until i want to die.
i'm going to hesitate less.

and this is a good start. i'm already exhausted just typing that, but it's all happening.

and of course my new blog title is based off of a brandi carlile song, cause you know how badly i'm in love with her. it's sort of a love song- i make it a love song to myself.